not going to be the same

days are different for me now, mixing up with a random people introduced by my long lost friend in a club is a whole new experience. it doesn't matter how and what am i going through , genda, where i stand ,who you are and where you come from, as long as you have money and something to share, they will come for you, dance with you, drink with you, have fun with you... i took it as an association. people there are friendly, but somehow.. it's a sad world.. just met this girl who tried to commit suicide by cutting her own wrist, but missed and went deeper down to her arm leaving a huge scar.. not once but manytimes. knowing her gave me a great shock. i felt sorry for her. because deep down inside me, i've thought of comitting suicide before too, but i've stopped because only cowards do those things.. but i can understand.. doing all of this is just making myself a hypocrite. not praying for sometime already, i know i should not do all thins things, it's just making me further away from God and what i'm suppose to do. i just needed a place to rest my head and now i've step inside to a world that might suit my kind... this might be the turning point of my life.